Table of Contents
Rough draft 1
Sleep talk 3
Sunday, April 23rd 5
Landmark 7
Magnets 9
Alaska 11
When i want to be on your team 13
Irises 15
Astronomy club 17
People over places 19
Half-awake 21
I was happy 23
Nosferatu 27
Beginnings always seem better through rose-tinted sunnies 29
She would want you to 33
Beautiful alone 35
My first kiss 37
Rest 39
P.s, 41
June 43
Forget-me-not 45
Gap 47
The first year 49
Philadelphia 51
Disciples 53
Better times 55
Hurry up, we don't have time to worry 57
As long as i don't stop living 59
A soft summer afternoon 61
Knots like pretzels 63
A sorry sort of snake 65
Slamming doors 67
Anhedonia 69
Bathroom mirror pep talk 71
A beautiful poem 73
A shattered glass 75
Shower 77
Pure 79
October 81
Subtlety 83
Your twenties & stability: a paradox 85
Agape 87
Things that remind me of delaware 89
If i hadn't been moving so quickly 91
Emma 93
Courage isn't fearless 95
I want you to cry, i want you to kiss me 97
Movement 99
Bed of roses 101
Happiness: you have to try 103
Naked 105
Sufficiency 107
Home 109
Tokyo 111
Please, please, please 113
Lover, rescuer 115
Dryer sheets 117
Attach 119
Commit 121
Collapse 123
Piano songs 125
Liability 127
September 129
Post-breakup treks 131
Antidepressants 133
The guilt of indifference 135
Remember all the poems i wrote about him? 137
Blue tang fish 139
To those who believe that love isn't real 141
Los angeles 143
Two months 145
Move slowly 147
Neglect 149
Shoshana 151
Kindling 153
To my past muses 155
Forgotten 157
21 159
Growing up 161
The equinox 163
Coda 165
Afterword 187
Acknowledgments 191
